Meditations of my Heart

2010-05-06T00:21:00.000-07:00

Time and Memories

by- Moriah Dorsch 2008

Reminiscing about all the places I had been. Looking back, not wanting to go forward.

Remembering, wanting to live in those times, to forget about now.

To remember the feel of the dirt on my hands, to remember the scent of flowers in my nostrils.

I wanted to run back to the past where I found peace. To leave the inner turmoil that faced me now.

To be able to go where I found rest instead of of living now just trying to do my best.

But more than just remembering, I wanted to share it with another.

Another who was with me in those moments.

Another who felt the dirt with me, who took in the aroma with me.

Back in those times when we found peace together. In those times when we had rest together.

We shared those days, we shared those moments. We shared the love of just being together.

It didn't matter where. It didn't matter when. We just lived. We were care free and lived in the moment. We didn't fear life or people. We didn't worry about what would happen.

We lived each day as though it was our last. We had no regrets.

Then one day was his last. But I had no regrets.

Only sorrow. Only grief. Missing the one who had shared those moments with me.

That's my only regret, my only sorrow, that he could no longer be by my side.

Now I remember for both of us. I sit on the ground and let the dirt run between my fingers for both of us.

I sit under the lilac bush and drink in the scent for both of us.

I walk down the road and watch the sunset parade across the skies for both of us.

I am almost no longer alone. He walks beside me when I remember for him.

It's almost like he's there remembering with me.

I feel him beside me. I almost feel his hand reaching out to mine.

He's there, but I cannot see him.

He's there, but I cannot smell him.

He's there, but I cannot feel him.

He's there, I can hear him in my memories.

And soon, it won't be just in my memories. I will be with him. And we will walk down the heavenly road hand in hand watching an even more glorious sunset...side by side.

Dance of Love

2009-08-03T11:02:00.000-07:00

There was love in his eye, a twinkle in his glance.
The spring in her step led her to the dance.

The grace with which she pirouetted drew the looks of those around;

For she twirled and spun in the dance of love with the One who knew her heart.

Grace and Beauty

2009-07-21T22:53:00.000-07:00

The beauty and elegance is almost inspiring. The music brings delight to my soul. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Uz2Gp7a38DM

Difficulies of forgiving

2009-06-11T22:18:00.000-07:00

Forgiveness-- very important. It can be rather difficult. But I think it's like a muscle, the more you do it the easier it gets, generally. I've been learning as a maturing Christian how I need God's forgiveness more now than I thought I did three years ago. If I'm growing up into an "adult Christian" and needing forgiveness now more than before, who am I to hold it back from another.
btw, there is secular research that has been out for a while about how forgiving is good for you.
I'm not going to elaborate on each unless someone asks, but here are a few of my thoughts on things I've learned in relation to forgiveness.

-- Forgiving someone does not mean you allow them to keep using/abusing you. You can draw a line, say "no," and still forgive.
-- Forgiveness does not necessarily mean reconciliation. Reconciliation takes two people (which I hope happens), Forgiveness takes one person. You.
-- We can forgive without the other person knowing we have forgiven them.
-- By not forgiving, we cripple ourselves more than anyone else. (My sister mentioned this along in relation to bitterness. Too true.) Sometimes a person has no idea they did something that hurt or offended us.
-- Forgiveness sometimes must be born out of a struggle and tears!
-- Forgiveness means letting go of our rights to anger and hate towards someone who injured us (whether it was done knowingly or unknowingly).
-- Forgiveness is a choice. Sometimes we need to remind ourselves that we forgave someone. (There have been times no one would have guessed I forgave someone. I tell God the struggle I am having in living out forgiveness towards a person. I pray for them. I try to put myself in their shoes. I remind myself that I already forgave them, and sometimes even tell myself where and how I did it.)
-- And sometimes, my motive is wrong. I just want God to forgive me, so I have to forgive someone. It's doing the right thing, but the heart is wrong. Until you're heart follows the decision, you can't really love that person the way God wants you to.
--Forgiving makes you stronger.
-- Not forgiving puts you at the same level (or lower) as that of the offender. Forgiving sets you above.

~Adapted from the School of Experience